Hard days, long nights

Hello my friends,

I want you all to know that your support and love and prayers mean the world to me. Knowing you are praying for us and my dad just means everything. I can feel them and they are like HUGE arms wrapped around us and holding on tight.

FIRST... I just can't go through telling you the story again. We started today asking God for positive news... but it didn't come. Please please before you read the rest of this posting, go to Dave's blog and read today's entry. www.fordee.blogspot.com

I am supposed to be sleeping..... fat chance.

Today's events have been such a roller coaster ride. I am overwhelmed. I just want my dad to sit up and tell us all we are making too big a deal of this whole thing. In his famous satirical way and pittsburghese accent he's say, "WHAAAAts all the excitement about???"

My dad is one of true supermen of all time. You know the scene in Superman where he looses his powers... that is hard to watch.... same deal here.

Please pray that his body will begin to heal... Send prayer like healing rain. (there is a song called healing ran... I'll look that up next)

I cant and dont want to sleep and the next person who tells me to rest is going to get smacked... I know I need to..... but I can't. Its not that i'm afraid i'll miss something, I just don't want to face reality in the morning like today... its too raw.

I told dad tonight that he had to get better because frankly, he has seen me play basketball, and he just doesn't want Mary Kate to have to go through life with her mother as her primary sports influence. That would just be wrong.... after all he DID go and buy her two whole new basketball outfits because I sent her there in all pink!

I haven't seen my girls since tue. It is starting to get to me, but I simply can't allow them to see me like this or worry about Dad. My dad is my daughter's hero.... he is her touchstone. I just can not have her see this situation. The girls are at my mother-in-laws... thank goodness. They are having fun and playing and hopefully are totally unaware. Mary still thinks I'm in Atlanta and we'll just keep it that way for a while.

My dad can make pigeons roll, hoops sink, family laugh and little girls giggle. He and mary play a kissing game where he tries to kiss her,but she won't let him. Then he says, 'oh look at the big bird on the table over there" and he kisses her. But she never lets him kiss her on the lips. It is sooooo cute and funny and dear. He can do all this with style charm and grace.... how can such a huge heart filled with love for so much be nearly stopped? I just don't get it.

we have had a lot of laughs today and if my dad knew that the whole family was sitting around laughing and crying and loving each other,he'd be very happy.. He just wants his family to be happy.... that's it. I was THRILLED he responded to dave...because he responded to me so much and I wanted that for them.

I'll be happy when we get some good news. There has been none and with each new news....it is just too much to take.

Please pray for him.... we need dry lungs and the dead tissue to stop. We need the potassium to go away and the heart to strenghthen. We need him to feel touched my the power of a god who can do anything.

My aunt Robin was with us all day and she is just amazing. I don't know what I'd do with out her. She said so much tonight that made me feel better. This family will get through this. It is amazing what a group of people who love each other can do.

I went to the chapel tonight in what had to be my weakest moment. The wall in the front of the room said, "Be still and know that He is here" There are 26 letters there by the way... its hard for me to be still. But it is true. God's roadmap is so much bigger than ours.

It is time for me to try and be still.

Please pray.... much love,
katie